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I failed. Again!

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Tonight, I had slept early. Maybe I was tired or just wanted to rest, I am not sure. But, I fell asleep with the phone in my hand as is generally the case. If I am home, the phone is my friend and gives me constant company when I am not working. And then, an email notification suddenly woke me about 15 minutes back.

I failed tonight. Again. For the Nth time in my life, and each time I fail I lose a little bit of me. You see, a big project that I was working on and was absolutely sure I shall get to do, slipped through my hand tonight. Those 5 lines of email jolted me out of my peaceful sleep like an earthquake would! It’s not that such things haven’t happened in the past. Being in the creative industry, I have faced such failures time & again, but each time it happens, it feels like the first time. The result, essentially, is always the same – every time you fall short of achieving your goal, I fall back and go into deep self-critical role. And THEN, it becomes absolutely impossible and difficult to let go of all that negativity – the negative energy that I feel right at this moment about it all as I pen these words down (or rather, type this down).

As demotivated as I am right now, I think I need to boost my morale by building self-acceptance and through this blog post, I want to help everyone who has ever been through failure in their respective lives. I think, when we hold a negative perception of ourselves,  it is not surprising to feel lost, defeated and like a huge failure in life. Each obstacle, mistake or failure can seem like proof of what we already know, that we won’t succeed and that it is not okay. What we need to do when we feel demotivated or depressed is we need to learn to give priority to ourselves and value ourselves We need to focus on valuing who we are and NOT what you do.

During all these years working as a creative professional, I’ve also come to realize that when we look to our accomplishments for validations of whether we are “worthy” or not, our sense of feeling good about ourselves depends completely on those achievements of life, which, frankly speaking, is a little too harsh.

Yes, I feel terribly upset tonight, yes, I feel dejected & like I’ve failed big time but I also know that with self-acceptance and identifying the issues, I will be fine. I would, at this point in time, love to brag about having truly supportive & compassionate friends but truth be told – they are more like ‘acquaintances’ than friends; I have absolutely NO true friends whom I can fully trust or be open with about my issues. It’s not that I don’t have “friends”. But, those who really care are only a few (less than the number of fingers I have on one hand!). 🙂

At the end of the day, after some thought, self-pity and what not, I have come to realize that persistence is the key to anything in life, and each time I fail, I somehow motivate myself by different means after I am done feeling dejected. This time too, I need to do the same. I need to be persistent. With persistence, no matter what my goals are, I shall increase my chances of achieving them in life…

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Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi are two wonderful people who are to get married very soon. I was fortunate enough to be chosen their photographer for the pre-wedding shoot which was done recently. It was fun, and the pictures have come out real nice. The couple absolutely LOVED these photographs, and I hope you all like these two. These are about 15 photographs from a set of 30+ pictures that I am sharing. Please do like, share & comment if you find these interesting.

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Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Harshit & Juhi || Pre-wedding shoot

Inside Hauz Khas Fort, New Delhi

Source: Wikipedia

Hauz Khas Complex (Hindi: हौज़ ख़ास, Punjabi: ਹੌਜ਼ ਖ਼ਾਸ, Urdu: حوض خاص‎) in Hauz Khas, South Delhi houses a water tank, an Islamic seminary, a mosque, a tomb and pavilions built around an urbanized village with medieval history traced to the 13th century of Delhi Sultanate reign. It was part of Siri, the second medieval city of India of the Delhi Sultanate of Allauddin Khilji Dynasty (1296–1316). The etymology of the name Hauz Khas in Farsi is derived from the words ‘Hauz’: “water tank” (or lake) and ‘Khas’:“royal”- the “Royal tank”. The large water tank or reservoir was first built by Khilji {the plaque displayed (pictured in the gallery) at the site records this fact} to supply water to the inhabitants of Siri.The tank was de–silted during the reign of Firuz Shah Tughlaq (1351–88). Several buildings (Mosque and madrasa) and tombs were built overlooking the water tank or lake. Firuz Shah’s tomb pivots the L–shaped building complex which overlooks the tank.

In the 1980s, Hauz Khas Village, studded with domed tombs of Muslim royalty from the 14th to 16th centuries, was developed as an upper class residential cum commercial area in the metropolis of South Delhi, India. It is now a relatively expensive tourist cum commercial area with numerous art galleries, upscale boutiques and restaurant. Swans and ducks are among the attractions at Hauz Khas Lake – which is part of the attraction to visitors.

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National Rail Museum, New Delhi

Recently, visited the National Rail Museum, and was able to create a few photographs of the wonderful place. Here are the pictures from the day.

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National Rail Museum, New Delhi

National Rail Museum, New Delhi

National Rail Museum, New Delhi

National Rail Museum, New Delhi

National Rail Museum, New Delhi

National Rail Museum, New Delhi

…all in the eyes of the beholder

Like they say, it is all in the eyes of the ‘beholder’. I have been to the Lodhi Gardens numerous times, not only because that place is beautiful and gives you such a nice reason to relax (we all need a “reason” to do everything these days), but also because it is a photographer’s paradise. There is so much to explore and photograph, that one evening is just not enough.

I have, in all these visits, photographed the tombs many-a-times, but each time I go back there, I somehow find a new meaning to the entire location. 🙂 These images which I have shared below, are taken during the same evening, just  minutes apart, of the same tomb; just chaging the PoV makes so much of a difference.

Exif: Canon EOS 5D coupled with a Canon EF 50mm f1.8 II Lens.

Explore. Photograph. Enjoy. Have a lovely weekend, people. Cheers.

 

 

 

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